October 15th, is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. This day was created to bring awareness for families who have suffered miscarriage, stillbirth, ectopic pregnancies and infant loss.
When I first married 24 years ago, I never thought I would be a "member" of this group, much less a three-time member. Of course nobody decides to start a family, expecting to lose a child. There is always the question of "Would I have done things differently?" and that is an impossible question to answer. If I had done things differently, I wouldn't have the same precious Chelsea that I do today. What if Courtney and Bryant had lived? What if I didn't have a miscarriage in 2001? Would Jameson still be here? Those questions are impossible to answer. God has a plan for my life and for Chelsea's and Jameson's lives. Even though I didn't understand then and still don't understand now, I have faith that I will one day.
So today, I want to remember my beautiful, feisty little girl Lena Courtney:
My precious, snuggle bug Timothy Bryant:
And also the much prayed for baby we lost before becoming pregnant with Jameson:
Many thoughts and prayers for all of you out there who are grieving your own losses.